Early testing?

So the other day I took a test, knowing that I was taking it more than a week early. I just had an erge to test because in my family you start to get symptoms early and I was feeling sick. It was negative but I'm not giving up. It's still early in the month. AF isn't supposed to get here till the middle of the month. No symptoms of her yet. We aren't technically trying yet. I went to the SSI office today in other news. So if I get accepted and we get out on our own we will really start trying. Me and Nick's chemical pregnancy has been on my mind as of late. Because how my due date should have been soon. </3 How I had a doctor appointment and everything. I'm just listening to my playlist for my miscarriages. Amy would be turning 5 this year! Instead I'm dealing with her angelversery. I'm tired of hiding it too. I love my angels. She would have been an amazing big sister. Me and Nick named our Angel Aiden Blake Barker. I've just realized I never wrote about him on any blog. I have on my facebook but never my blog. Well here's nothing lol in August of last year me and Nick found out I was pregnant by 3 home tests. All positive!Just for the next month for me to lose the baby. I went to the doctor trying to figure out how the baby passed so easily. It was a chemical pregnancy. Meaning the baby never made it pass the cell stage. But a person is a person no matter how small. Sorry for the goriness but it makes me feel better talking about it. Amy and Aiden I love you so much. I miss you so much.